Ode to a guy!!!!
I know your probably thinking already this is so gay and that you feel gay just by reading this e-mail because its kind of cheesy but dammit, im gonna win you over with my charm.
Anyways i know you werent up for talking about this before but i was thinking about wat i sed when i told you that to replenish you need to remember what we liked about each other in the first place and then i started thinking about those first couple of months that we were together.And i started thinking about the stupid little things that meant so much. I remember the night i met you so clearly (mind you my memory gets hazy as time goes by but not this) i remember standing outside of the club hanging out talking to Paullette and a bunch of you came to talk to us and we were just standing there chatting with me and my tank top and just gloves on, and i remember how you thought that was the stupidest thing ever but u liked it. i dont know about you but i had this little feeling of excitement like when you hit it off really well with someone and you just want to stay in that moment and freeze it. I remember you guys were soo drunka dn were looking for an afterparty to go to (Bar12) and u told me and paullette to come and i was honestly considering it because i wanted to hook up with you so bad but when i turned around you were gone and i thought i wouldnt hear from you just like so many guys have done before. and a week later u invite me out to what is now considered our first date. I remember thinking we have things in common our convos r not shallow and materialistic, tehyr random, funny and political and theres some sexual tension and how awesome it was that someone is telling me to come out to williamsburg, somewhere where ive been wanting to go out in for a long time. You thought it was so cool of me to come without knowing anyone to come and hangout. I was getting antsy in anticipation waiting for you to kiss me all night because i wanted you to so bad and when we were on the dance floor we were talking so closely and i really ddnt think it would happen right then and there because i ddnt really want to kiss you on the dancefloor because i was so shy but then we found that little dark corner by the bar and we continued to make out.That was awesome. Or Like the time where it was raining and it might have been our second date or something and it was still awkward for you tocome upstairs to talk to my parents so you waited by my door with an umbrella so i wouldnt get wet. Or when i was shocked that no matter what you never missed an oppurtunity to open the car door for me, and you promised me that you would never stop doing it for me as long as u can ...and from there on i promised myself i would never forget to thank you for doing that because its been 11 months and till this day i am gratefull for it. There was also the time when we barely knew each other for 2 weeks and you called me from israel and i underestimated you because i thought it was a good couple of weeks and i probably wouldnt hear from you again when u get back from israel and sure enough you called me not once but twice. I remember the night you asked me out, it was the first night u came back from israel and we went to go see munich and it was raelly late and u wanted to go get some tea but tea lounge was closed and the only thing open was Ammonia so we go there and i would have never expected for wat u were about to do because even though we were dating for a month i thought u were young and you ddnt want to be committed so i was just waiting for the falling out to hit any day when you started saying how much you missed me in israel and that you wanted to be official with me. i was speechless and extatic. I remember the first night i got upset at you, we were at barcade and i was nervous that u got with a girl in utah but ddnt want to tell me so eli was joking around playing along and i had that whole psychelogical theory that bec he sed that, its like he was trying to get me to think that you ddnt but u really did and i told you that and u just laughed and laughed at me and reassured me that you liked me too much to do that. Also the time where i had a 107 fever and felt like utter crap and you had invited me to go to a bar with u and elie ,you had no idea how sick i was, but i wasnt gonna stay home, i wanted to hang out with you so i had to trick my mom into believing that i was feeling better so i could go and i did and i had a great time, and i think i might have gotten you sick too, or when u thought u gave me bronchitis. I remember when i was sitting at home completely out of it and totally exhausted from school and i was all disheveled when i get a knock at my door and i go to open it thinking that its the moozardinya from downstairs annoying me about some shit or other and to my shock and horror your standing there with a coldplay ticket telling me to hurry my ass up because we were gonna miss the show, you didnt stop trying to get in touch with me to get me to come,ive never been happier in my entire life.
There were the times when we first started going out to clubs together. At 58 i remember getting all annoyed at you bec u were so hammered and you would be all frisky with me, even though i told you to stop, now i regret it bec i kind of miss that, you couldnt keep your hands off me and now that i think about it was very cute( and im sorry i ever told you to stop) I remember the night that you told me you loved me, we were lying on your couch and i was lying on top of you and we were just talking about stuff and wat you liked about me and wat i liekd about u when you said "i think im falling in love with you...." and once again you caught me off gaurd and made methe happiest ive ever been. And i knew i felt the same. It was that night we had sex for the first time....and you were so relieved but yet u still wanted to make sure it was all my decision and that i wasnt being pressured, even though u wanted to have sex from day 1. i remember we had that scare and throughout that whole time you were by my side no matter wat, u never left me.
What i needed was a little nostalgia and i guess i had to share it with someone, so naturally it had to be with u. Sometimes in order to keep going, you have to look at the past. I guess thats wat i needed , a reminding of why i love you so much and y after all this time im still with you. You make me laugh, you make me feel sexy, you make me blush,your my best freind and the only person who really knows me, i can talk to you about anything, ur always there for me, your the funnest person i knw (except when ur lazy and u dnt want to do anything) your my drinking buddy and my movie partner, your the only person i really truly ever want to be with and Im sorry i ever doubted you or us and im sorry 4 every time i ever got mad at u for no apparent reason.
Anyways i know you werent up for talking about this before but i was thinking about wat i sed when i told you that to replenish you need to remember what we liked about each other in the first place and then i started thinking about those first couple of months that we were together.And i started thinking about the stupid little things that meant so much. I remember the night i met you so clearly (mind you my memory gets hazy as time goes by but not this) i remember standing outside of the club hanging out talking to Paullette and a bunch of you came to talk to us and we were just standing there chatting with me and my tank top and just gloves on, and i remember how you thought that was the stupidest thing ever but u liked it. i dont know about you but i had this little feeling of excitement like when you hit it off really well with someone and you just want to stay in that moment and freeze it. I remember you guys were soo drunka dn were looking for an afterparty to go to (Bar12) and u told me and paullette to come and i was honestly considering it because i wanted to hook up with you so bad but when i turned around you were gone and i thought i wouldnt hear from you just like so many guys have done before. and a week later u invite me out to what is now considered our first date. I remember thinking we have things in common our convos r not shallow and materialistic, tehyr random, funny and political and theres some sexual tension and how awesome it was that someone is telling me to come out to williamsburg, somewhere where ive been wanting to go out in for a long time. You thought it was so cool of me to come without knowing anyone to come and hangout. I was getting antsy in anticipation waiting for you to kiss me all night because i wanted you to so bad and when we were on the dance floor we were talking so closely and i really ddnt think it would happen right then and there because i ddnt really want to kiss you on the dancefloor because i was so shy but then we found that little dark corner by the bar and we continued to make out.That was awesome. Or Like the time where it was raining and it might have been our second date or something and it was still awkward for you tocome upstairs to talk to my parents so you waited by my door with an umbrella so i wouldnt get wet. Or when i was shocked that no matter what you never missed an oppurtunity to open the car door for me, and you promised me that you would never stop doing it for me as long as u can ...and from there on i promised myself i would never forget to thank you for doing that because its been 11 months and till this day i am gratefull for it. There was also the time when we barely knew each other for 2 weeks and you called me from israel and i underestimated you because i thought it was a good couple of weeks and i probably wouldnt hear from you again when u get back from israel and sure enough you called me not once but twice. I remember the night you asked me out, it was the first night u came back from israel and we went to go see munich and it was raelly late and u wanted to go get some tea but tea lounge was closed and the only thing open was Ammonia so we go there and i would have never expected for wat u were about to do because even though we were dating for a month i thought u were young and you ddnt want to be committed so i was just waiting for the falling out to hit any day when you started saying how much you missed me in israel and that you wanted to be official with me. i was speechless and extatic. I remember the first night i got upset at you, we were at barcade and i was nervous that u got with a girl in utah but ddnt want to tell me so eli was joking around playing along and i had that whole psychelogical theory that bec he sed that, its like he was trying to get me to think that you ddnt but u really did and i told you that and u just laughed and laughed at me and reassured me that you liked me too much to do that. Also the time where i had a 107 fever and felt like utter crap and you had invited me to go to a bar with u and elie ,you had no idea how sick i was, but i wasnt gonna stay home, i wanted to hang out with you so i had to trick my mom into believing that i was feeling better so i could go and i did and i had a great time, and i think i might have gotten you sick too, or when u thought u gave me bronchitis. I remember when i was sitting at home completely out of it and totally exhausted from school and i was all disheveled when i get a knock at my door and i go to open it thinking that its the moozardinya from downstairs annoying me about some shit or other and to my shock and horror your standing there with a coldplay ticket telling me to hurry my ass up because we were gonna miss the show, you didnt stop trying to get in touch with me to get me to come,ive never been happier in my entire life.
There were the times when we first started going out to clubs together. At 58 i remember getting all annoyed at you bec u were so hammered and you would be all frisky with me, even though i told you to stop, now i regret it bec i kind of miss that, you couldnt keep your hands off me and now that i think about it was very cute( and im sorry i ever told you to stop) I remember the night that you told me you loved me, we were lying on your couch and i was lying on top of you and we were just talking about stuff and wat you liked about me and wat i liekd about u when you said "i think im falling in love with you...." and once again you caught me off gaurd and made methe happiest ive ever been. And i knew i felt the same. It was that night we had sex for the first time....and you were so relieved but yet u still wanted to make sure it was all my decision and that i wasnt being pressured, even though u wanted to have sex from day 1. i remember we had that scare and throughout that whole time you were by my side no matter wat, u never left me.
What i needed was a little nostalgia and i guess i had to share it with someone, so naturally it had to be with u. Sometimes in order to keep going, you have to look at the past. I guess thats wat i needed , a reminding of why i love you so much and y after all this time im still with you. You make me laugh, you make me feel sexy, you make me blush,your my best freind and the only person who really knows me, i can talk to you about anything, ur always there for me, your the funnest person i knw (except when ur lazy and u dnt want to do anything) your my drinking buddy and my movie partner, your the only person i really truly ever want to be with and Im sorry i ever doubted you or us and im sorry 4 every time i ever got mad at u for no apparent reason.
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