Here Today, Gone Tomorow!!!!!

So amid all the holiday fuss, ive been kind of standing on the outside looking in, not only b/c i dnt celebrate christmas but also because i aint getting shit for nobody!!! Ive never really gotten anything for hanukka from my parents and my freinds- yeah im lucky if i get anything for my birthday (but don't shed a tear just yet)Karmas a bitch, whether im the one getting Karma-ised or the other person is. Usually i return the gesture if initiated, if not,well then i dnt. In any event looking at all the mayhem that was the STRIKE in NYC this past week and the holiday shopping, it got me thinking wheres the sense of values??? Maybe values isnt the word but i mean its like ok put it into perspective; right now the world is standing very fragile on many issues. Each country with its own problems. Africa has aids, Argentina has famine, Eastern Eastern Europe and China have to deal with dictatorship, Israel has its hands full with terrorist groups on alarm every single fucking day and its prime minister is the equivalent of "Good" ol' Dubya making decisions that will forever haunt his afterlife and here is America in the midst of war overseas with its inhabitants in a holiday panic of shopping and eating. With Union workers oh so worried about their "really important" 10% raise, when in fact New York budget is at a low, poeple with computer jobs from 9-5 dont get as much as they do a year (they get 40-60,000 dollars a year + major benefits going from paid vacations and sick days to medical insurance)and theyr complaining. Do they know how hard it is to get a job that pays that well with full benefits? And they want a fucking 10% raise. do u know whose gonna have to pay for their raises in the end? Me and you, thats who. So when u think of it that way its like "Do they really deserve to get a raise?" "Should we really be spending so much money on excessive gifts and expensive clothes?" Is it morally right to be this selfish when these things are happening around me? You know what the truth is i don't know because i can sit here and bitch and moan about whats wrong in the world today but really when it comes down to it i cant change anything. I wont get off my ass and make a stand. So who am i to talk, but at least i can live with myself knowing that i have thought about how messed up and how flawed we all are. and how our country continues to exist in an "were invincible and noone can stop us now" sort of way and how little the public really knows about what were informed in the media. Are we really living under "BIG BROTHER"? How much of whats being told is really true? and why do they keep us so dumb? They comfort us and shower us with ideals of Get married procreate consume consume consume!!! and all is well. and that should keep us from asking questions. Digging deep into the scum that really control this country, whilst the "FAT MAN" sit pretty watching from afar letting all his other "FAT FRIENDS" enjoy the fruit that is made from the toils of the drones down beneath them. All for one and fuck everyone else is the leading message from our leader of the "FREE WORLD" as we so loosely use the term. Are we really free??
Think about that for a while and then re-evaluate your values on life!!!!

O ok WOW i have no idea where that came from, maybe something that i havent had a chance to express and combusted, well in any event back to our regularly scheduled program....
So this week was quite interesting i must say.
On tuesday i had a few errands to run but went to marc's to say bye b/c he sed he was going to be home packing and getting shit together all day because he had to be in the airport at 7 so he asked me to come bya nd visit during the day, i sed hell yea!!! so we hung out for a little bit before he left (and i miss him like mad) and
Wednesday night i went to hang out by my freinds new apartment in williamsburg(flippin' sweet pad he has, holy crap, im dying jealous) we went out to some by bar down the street and came back to his place for a little bit.
Thursday night i had a "freind's" engagement party but shes one of those people that u cant tell is being nice to u because shes fake or because she likes you so i evaluated how much i really wanted to go mingle with people i so dearly "love" because hmm guess what???.... im socially awkward!!! and decided fuck 'em and went for dinner with Sarah at a sushi place on 7th ave. When i got a call from none other than MR "RIGHT NOW" himself from abroad to tell me he's drizunk and that he missed me. Oh yess people he went there. He drunk dialed!!!! but nevertheless still appreciated. I heard that people who drunk dial, call the people that r in their thoughts constantly.
Aside from that t.v has been sucking asshole lately and nothing good has been on. Only thing that im enjoying right now is Project Runway. I keep missing th O.C. but theyr on hiatus right now and MTV needs to dish out some new shows. The Gauntlet is just not doing it for me. cant seem to sit through a show. What i am looking forward to is "Meet the Barkers" and "There and Back", "TNB" is looking quite enticing, how could you resist a show about a has been trying to make "it" again solo. and u know uve been wondering where have the Otown boys been. i know i was just last month(thats not a joke, i really was) so that is gonna make for some really good "Realiskankty" T.V.
While i wish i was in miami for new years im gonna be in ny trying to find somewhere to basque myself in the warm pleasure of alchaholic bliss. GBH's NYE Movida party is looking mighty fine but the most probably sold out over priced $100 ticket is just a tad over budget for my empty pocketed self. In any event i was invited to a house party in Jersey or i would say a club but anywhere i go in ny except for misshapes is gonna have a ticket asking price of 100 and beyond so i dnt think im headed to a club on nye but hey u never knw.

So i know ive been lagging and its a little late to update on the weekend before last (12/08 - 12/11) but here goes anyway:
Thursday night me marc and his freind eli went to a local bar on 5th ave. in Park Slope. i forgot the name of it though but it was really chill and we shot back a few beers. Saturday night i went to Royal Oak Room with Marc again and a couple of his freinds(not the same ones from last week) and we got a banquet and everything this week because it was pretty empty when we walked in but when we were leaving the place filled up. I wasn't really into dancing because the music was like old school motown, cool, but not my groove although it was many others'. So we got out of there and i ended up going back to his place afterwards (chillax people, not for the whole night)because he owed me a game(video) but by the time we got there we were both so lazy we just watched some Family Guy and some Borat. He made me some tea (aawww!!!)because my throat was hurting and i was coughing up a lung, well i guess thats the least he could do since he gave me all that stuff.
Sunday morning my freind Barry asked me if i wanted to go get a bunch of coats and hand them out to a bunch of homeless people so i sed umm.. okay. Hes a generous guy, really, okay the deal is he found like a gazillion coats in this store in the manhattan mall for like 10 bucks or watvr so he wants to buy a bunch of coats and hand them out to homeless people because....theyr homeless duh!!! so me and our freind Andrew went to help him schlep his stupid bags. But it was for a really good cause i guess. See who need organizations when u have heart to heart charity. That night i went for dinner with my freind Margo , we had like one of those longs dinners where u just catch up, it was really cool, she really enjoyed herself. Iguess because she doesnt see me very often and also because shes been sick for the last couple of weeks so she doesnt really see anyone other than her boyfreind.
Monday night i met up with my freind Jack C., who i havent seen in ages(probably since the end of September) and figured we should catch up and watnot.
So on thursday night were supposed to hang out and get shitfaced (me n marc)because hes going away the week after to do some short films abroad and his freind sed he'd be able to hook him up with loads of drinks because hes promoting at some club or watvr. Well see wat happens. Were also supposed to be hanging out on saturday night but who knows wat the days will bring. Hopefully some wine and spirits!!! hehe

(12/15-12/18)So Thursday i ended up going out with Marc but we ddnt get shitfaced!!! The weather was having a "shit storm" (hehe get it!!! get it!!!)and was waay gross to feel like going out (although i always feel like i want to go out)it was kind of just a chill night. We ended up meeting up with his freinds and smoking hooka.

Saturday night we did in fact hangout and originally it was supposed to be me n him alone but his freind eli ended up coming out with us and we went to this bar in williamsburg called Barcade, which they were both in heaven because video games form the 80's rule but not when ur buzzed. I dnt knw wat the hell was in that fuckn chocalate stout (or watvr the name of the beer is) but it gave me the biggest buzz. Damn have i become that much of a lightweight or was i roofied? that def osmething to think about. (hmmm!!!)anywyas i played donkey kong and another game i forgot the name or the game actually, but in any event i failed miserably in both, not sure if it was the alchahol or me but yea it was a sad excuse for a challenge. After a strong beer a couple of games and some lounging around and a few sesh's we bolted with eli in tow and went a couple of blocks away to Royal Oak to persue our wild oats (heheh get it!!! get it!!!) and the highlight of my night was when the DJ played NIN's I want to FUCK you like an Animal(is that teh name of the song, im not usre) well it was great the crowd was banging on the floor with every bassline and synth sound and arms flailing crotches grinding and hair wildly swinging. It was flippin' sweet. Once i told him that this song was one of the songs on my "want to have sex to" soundtrack, he flipped out and wanted to "rape" me rite there b/c it was just too hott to handle. Ohh yess it was!!!Then the DJ killed the moment when she played "My Humps" by the Black Eyed Peas WTF???? (elk) After a daze of drunkeness and blurred out vision we bolted once again because Eli wasn't having a good time not picking up any girls, and i think he was just frustrated that he couldn't. afterwards we went back to marc's house and chilled out for a bit until i was out of my drunken phase.
Today i went to lunch with my freind Sarah at some rest. on the corner of lafayette and prince and we just window shopped.
I wanted to go to the Senses Fail Saves the Day and Hidden In Plain View at Warsaw in williamsburg so bad but by the time i got home and got in touch with margo i was liek aahh how bad do i really want to go but it was such a sweet package 3 great bands 1 great venue in brooklyn how awesome does it get. well i apparently didnt end up going because im soo tired.
The Soshe Says: "Pim Pam Poom"
Translation: Wham Bam Thank you Ma'am

Quick recap!!!!

ok so remember last Saturday nite when i sed i was standing outside the bar that i was at and i met this guy who was already an aqcuaintace and he took my # well in guy time he called me on Thursday to tell me to come out with him and his freind for one of his freinds birthday. He sed that i should come out with some freinds and that it should be fun, so on saturday i was banking on paullette to come with me but she bailed and i was left standing alone with no hope, just kidding!! i figured wtvr if i cant find someone ill just go and hey im openminded worst comes to worst i have a shitty time. So we end up in a bar called Royal Oak room in Williamsburg on Union ave. and ended up having a great time, although the music could hvae been alittle better!!! Not what i would ahve expected froma williamsburg bar. When we walked in the music was good alittle bit of kinks a little bit of house a little bit of new wave some hip hop (elk) and by the time we were hammered the dj swapped and basically played a bunch of hip hop that wasnt so enjoyable, tsk tsk!!! but by that time i was hammered and it ddnt really matter because i was having a really good time with the guy, whose name is marc by the way.
Sunday afternoon i went with my freind Sarah to Quantum Leap for some brunch.
that was basically my chilled out weekend.
I think Sam is pretty much out of the picture because hes just so flaky. I mean he pretty much balances me out every other week. Like one week hell chill with me and
and teh next week is with his boys and prob other girls. Although we get along really well, we ahve the same humor, theres no sexual tension and thats kind of a big deal. And also if i dnt initiate a conversation we wouldnt make plans. I dnt need that, but im sure hell prob pop up again soon. I did speak to him this week online and i was asking him wat he did this past weekend and i basically had to wring it out of him but also i hate knowing jealous facts so its kind of a lose lose situation. It kind of goes without saying that i definitly hit it off with marc, we have things in common our convos r not shallow and materialistic, tehyr random, funny and political and theres some tension i aint gonna lie. but im probably getting way over my head, just liek i always do with a new guy. i jinx myslef all the time. Well in any event im really feelign shitty rite now and my head feels like it weighs 100 lbs and my chest feels like its going to cave in but he called me tonite and asked me if i wanted to join him and a freind for a local drink or a show or s/t so i sed hells yea b/c when do i ever pass up a good time, even when im feeling so shitty!!!!
The Soshe says: " Humor is the key to my heart"
Translation: Its true!!!

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