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Heyy Bitches!!!!

This is my first post and im really excited although my life is not all that exciting. I left my identity anonymous because theres nothing that goes unnoticed with the people that i knw. Although my identity will unravel as time goes on. i promise!!! However the people ill be talking about their names def are going to be disguised(im paranoid wat can i say). Unless i'm talking about celebs then who gives a fuck.I'll try to keep it as real as possible. Anyways about me: I just turned 20 this summer and im trying to find my place in this fuckn world. Its little old me aginst the world. Ever since high school ended, i dropped the jap-y attitude came down from my fantasy world and the "BUBBLE" opened up my eyes and learned a thing or two about other cultures. Granted I didnt have this life altaring experience to give me this blow to the head, but i might as well have with the changes ive made. I'm stuck living at home(for now) with big city dreams. I've mapped out my life without a path to start from. It's like this mirage that you know isnt there but it looks so real. I'm ready to get out and do my thing but scared to let go of my past. It's like this book that i just read called "Nevermind the Goldbergs". It talks about this Orthodox Jewish girl that listens to punk music and goes to concerts and shows and looks up to Ani DiFranco but still has her moral and jewish values. When i picked up the book and read the panel i was like this is my calling. Although im not orthodox- more like traditional and we dnt have the same values- b/c im alittle more secular than she is, like ill eat non-kosher food except for meat but im a veggie anyways, or ill fool around with guys but im still the big "V", were pretty much the same b/c shes ready for this life in the secular world but shes not ready to leave behind e/t shes been raised to be. Thats my only setback. That and the disapproval of my parents. I guess the reason why i wanted to post a blog was because i was tired of being alone in a packed room. I wanted to see if there was anyone else out there that feels the way i do. I'm tired of those lame people on myspace. Theyr always like "u wnt feel lonely anymore, not when ur with me", enter loser with 10 freinds all are pornstar looking girls with their tits hanging out of their shirts. Anyone out there with actual substance?????